I admit, this is an exceptionally tough one for me. I am often longing for my body the way it used to be, muscular, fit, steady, reliable, energetic, and looked good in most anything I wanted to wear.
Today, the muscles and connective tissues of my body are weakened by disease, my balance in unsteady and shaky, I tire out very quickly and my muscles quiver, tremble and burn with seemingly simple movements. My body now requires careful deliberate focused attention to my diet, eating very clean, multiple small meals daily, my body requires careful attention to well timed nutritional supplements and medications, and pre-scheduled as well as often additional unscheduled rest periods. Gone are the days when my body afforded me spontaneity, and enjoying a day free of routine and schedules… my body now requires careful, near round-the clock care.
These are all difficult realities to face and requires much time, deep grief, deep practice of radical acceptance work, however, we can and do come out to the other side. I have trained my mind well over time to not look back and compare, or look back and judge what my body used to be as that only brings feelings of grief, negativity, and frustration. It is a difficult practice, like most others in our lives, however, it is possible to truly let go and be at peace with where you are today and continue to focus on where you are each day in the present time and conserve your energy and efforts into doing what you can today for your struggling body through peace in your mind and soul.
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